God sent Jesus into this world and then to the cross at just the right time. Your eve will come as he wills it, but he is here in the midst as your hope now. What is it he has for you as you wait? He doesn't waste anything. The pain, the struggle, the waiting. He uses it all.

I won't pretend that choosing to walk through it instead of sitting in it is easy. Healing is hard work.

I awaken each day, crying out to Jesus, believing that he is fighting for me. When I feel like the I write his truth in my journal by hand, meditating on it as if it were a shield against the flaming arrows. Because it is.